The decision....?

Dilemma…

Making decision is sometimes easy..sometimes difficult…and our decision making this time is the toughest we faced….

To accept or not to accept?

To quit or not to quit?

To move or not to move?

To work or to stay at home?

To work on my own or to be hired as someone else employee?

To start a business or to do freelance?

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hemmmm...remember this story?

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At first, Ayah made his 1^st decision to accept the new job offer in Lumut. Once he informed me about that, I went to the housing developer of B** U** to ask about the vacancy of their 3^rd phase project. I was lucky that there were a few lots available to be booked. Well, we have been eyeing for this house for quite some time(since last year – the 1^st and 2^nd phase) but as we were still not sure to settle down here or not…we just kept the desire inside. I was so excited (the kids as well) that we often went to the decorated show house to enjoy the view of the interior design of it while at the same time absorbing some ideas for our future new home.

Unfortunately, very recently, Ayah made his final decision of not accepting the offer. Well, after he considered and took into account a lot and lottttttttttttttttttt of factors…did istikharah prayer etc….This is not simple…seriously! Some said that we are the kind of people who prefer to live in KL and be ‘KL’an?’KL’ian? The one who do not want to sacrifice things and just want to live easy life …hey…!!! That hurts you know!!!This is our life….let us make the decision for our own sake!!!Yeah, sometimes friends are the ones that we rely on…but sometimes, friends that we hope to give us support might come up with those sayings….ouch….so pathetic……….

I will always remember what my former superior(a man with respect) here said to (many..many times).....'Tempat Seorang Isteri Adalah di sisi Suaminya dan Tempat Seorang Anak Adalah di sisi Ibunya'....without that, a family institution may be ruined....I can still recall his sayings....he was really agianst the fact that I was here alone without my husband and my kids(at that time...for one year in fact!)

At this point of time, after being stranded here for TWO years without hubby around…I’m quite used to the ‘dead’ environment here…it’s true…this is a very simple and easy life…I’m used to that(though my heart is as cold as an iceberg....and EMPTY as well)…ku redha….finally, I can accept to settle down here …if hubby accept that offer…

Now that the decision is to move back to KL…I have to think of something…

I would really love to work on my own…but I’m not so sure in which area would that be…my interests are more towards…cooking…food….babies…breastfeeding and the list go on and on…I am still thinking…and thinking…and thinking……if you happen to have any idea on this big question mark…please do not hesitate to leave a comment…suggestions pleaseeee…………….